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What I’ve learned about trying to earn love

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I now see that a lot of my neuroses has been rooted in insecurity and fear. Not feeling secure and feeling that the burden of my safety, my life happenings, my success, my joy, everything – weighed solely on my shoulders with no other help or guidance. And all of it was life or death.

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The Practice

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Growing up, I’ve always felt like I had to change for the people in my life – myself included – to become more this or more that in order to fit in and just feel like I belonged somewhere. From family to friends, I rarely felt good enough as is.

I’m not sure if this is something that everyone experiences while growing up or if I subconsciously sought it out and manifested it into my life, but I was stuck in a loop of always trying to please everyone else. In the process of rearranging yourself to other people’s needs, it’s easy to lose sight of yourself.

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My New Year Ritual: Reflect and Correct

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Original IG post: @sikadee

Happy New Year! Wow, December was a busy month for me. Sorry, I’ve been MIA for a while but I’m happy to be back.

The end of the year and the beginning of a new year is always a reflective time for me. This year I was doing a lot of last-minute rushing around but I did finally get the chance to do what I like to call “my reflections and corrections” last Monday since offices were closed for New Year’s Day.

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The Beauty of Blankness

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As I sit in my room typing this, I’m overwhelmed by all of the clutter in my room that I’ve been trying to sort out over the past year. By “trying to” I mean I’ve made half-ass attempts to make a plan to clean up and organize – but I generally give up before even really trying. I leave it to the ever elusive tomorrow. Just thinking about it stresses me out.

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Hello 24 – Flexibility, Rock bottom, and welcoming the new

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Change comes whether you’re ready for it or not.

I feel like life has been repeatedly giving me lessons in change and flexibility. Both recently and just throughout my life in general. For some reason life wants me to get comfortable with the idea that I don’t have ownership or control over everything despite my desire to.

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Thought for Today: Breathe

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The other day my tumblr queue posted a quote: “Embrace the current season of your life” and that is my focus for today. It’s actually been my focus for a while now but also today specifically. (speaking of tumblr, my homepage is on fleek today haha)

“Embrace the current season of your life.”

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